Wednesday, 21 October 2020

9 Years

 


One year. Nine years.

Never gets easier. Never really completely healed. Never really goodbye. 

Mom, 
Life moves on.
But one day of every year, times feels like it hasn't. 
Time always brings me back to that day.
When you were taken.

I don't have any regrets about the past. 
I don't have "I would have done things differently" moments.
I know you knew how much I loved you.
I know you knew how much I struggled.
I know you knew how much I felt.
I know you know me best.
I know you know I do life with no regrets.

I don't wish to redo the past. 
But there are many times where I wished for a different future. 
A future where you are still here.
A future of many 1 more hour with you.
A future where you are just a phone call away.
A future where you get to see your grandchildren. 
A future where your grandchildren know how amazing their grandma is.

But I know that's not happening.
I know and it's okay.
It's okay because I carry you with me always.
Your voice guides me. 

"Look at the stars. The great kings of the past look down on us from those stars. So whenever you feel alone, just remember that those kings will always be there to guide you. And so will I."
- Lion King

Love you mom.
Thank you mom.
Remembering you always.

-Ally

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