Friday, 6 January 2017

To My Firstborn Daughter

Dear LittleLim,

I remember the first day I found out I was pregnant with you. Surprised, scared, happy, excited all wrapped in one pee stick. Oh, how I counted down to the day I finally get to see your beautiful face. I remember my heart bursting the moment I heard your screams, the moment I felt your skin on mine, the moment you entered the world and I became a mom.

You were the first one who became more important than myself (let's keep this from daddy ok :D ). The one who can make me want to change my life a 180 degrees the other way for without even a second thought. The one who makes giving up my life for easy. 

You were the first human who made me clean their dirty bumbums, scrape vomit off the bed, sleep in pee stained sheets because I didn't want to wake you up and the first human who kept me up all night taking your temperature.

You were the one who had to endure all my mom mistakes. Rolling off the bed because I didn't think you could roll. Eating hard carrots because I didn't know how long to steam them for. All my tantrums and frustrations sent your way because I was still learning to parent you and am still learning. Thank you for your patience, thank your for your forgiveness and thank you for being my teacher.

You were the one whom I taught to crawl, walk, clap, talk and I enjoyed each moment. The pride of being a mom whose child has hit their milestones. You made me feel all that and more.

You were the one who made me realise that I wanted to be a mom. I wanted to be the best mom for you. You were the one who unlocked something inside me that made me realise that being a mom is one of the best things I would ever get to do in my life. You were the one who made me love being a mom.

AND, It's because of you mommy and daddy are excited to be parents again. We know you will be such a wonderful big sister to your new baby brother/sister. If you ever feel frustrated at our growing family because you feel you now have to compete for attention and love, know that mommy and daddy have enough love for all of you and you will always have a special place in our hearts.

So while you may no longer be our only child, always remember that you my dear will always be our first born. I love you unconditionally, fiercely and protectively always.

Love, Mommy.

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